Weekly Torah Portion


6.25.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

While the announcement was fifteen months in the making, it still arrived with a sense of unexpected surprise. On Wednesday, our residents were informed that we will begin opening our doors a little wider, allowing them more opportunities to get outside the walls of 8831 Venice and (re)engage with the world. In practical terms, this... Read more »

6.18.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

I remember sitting in a hotel lobby with a group of rabbis who had founded their own spiritual communities.  It was, for all its importance, impromptu - an unscheduled gathering of people breaking barriers of welcoming and prayer and relevance in American Judaism.  Generally, this was not a quiet group and, while not necessarily arrogant,... Read more »

6.11.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

Why take a position in leadership?  Would you take it for the power?  Financial gain?   Status or access to resources?  What motivates one to take a position of power and be subject to the needs of a community - their whims, desires, and complaints? Remember back in the book of Exodus - Moses never wanted... Read more »

6.4.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

In this week’s parashah, the Israelites get their first real taste of the Promised Land.  Having survived slavery and come into liberation, having encountered God at Mount Sinai, having faced their own flaws as they tried to worship a golden calf, having come all this way, they are finally about to reach the culmination of... Read more »

5.28.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

Whoever does not make him/herself ownerless, like the wilderness, is not able to acquire wisdom and Torah (Bamidbar Rabbah 1:7).  Ever since my first experience with Hitbodedut -- a Chasidic practice championed by Rabbi Nachman of Breslov, where one goes out into nature alone and pours out one's heart and soul in prayer to God... Read more »

5.21.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

For the first time since the pandemic, I was blessed with the opportunity to study together, in person, with a community of learners during last Sunday night’s celebration of Shavuot.  Shavuot marks the giving and receiving of the Torah, and we engaged in a tikkun leil Shavuot (an all-night study session) until the break of... Read more »

5.14.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

Potty training is a wilderness.  Where is the closest bathroom?  Is there a line?  Will people kindly let the three-year-old to the front of the line?  Will she notice she needs to go?  Or do we keep her on a timed schedule?  Will she pee on the floor of Banana Republic? There is wisdom out... Read more »

5.7.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

I don’t know about you, but lately I’ve been feeling like I’ve been experiencing a tremendous amount of change.  About a month ago, I traveled for the first time since the pandemic began, seeing my parents and sister for the first time in over a year.  Businesses are opening up, and I’ve been attending in-person... Read more »

4.30.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

Our Torah portions over the past several weeks have explicitly focused on holiness.  We started with G!D’s command/promise: “You will be Holy!” (Lev. 19:2), which was followed by instructions on how to actually live “Holy” (among others: “do not put a stumbling block in front of the blind” and “love your neighbor as yourself”).  The... Read more »

4.23.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

It was late at night, the kids were finally asleep, and my wife and I were both exhausted from the days’ work and putting our two wonderful kids to bed. The kitchen countertops were full of dishes piled up from tonight's dinner, along with the remnants from yesterday’s. Allie has eczema on her hands, so... Read more »

4.16.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

When I was 18 months old, my mom took me to a dermatologist because I had rashes everywhere.  The creams and lotions only worked so well, and she wanted to relieve my discomfort.  She wanted an answer, an easy solution, but the doctor said: “Maybe it’s stress?” Whatever is going on inside our bodies shows... Read more »

4.9.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

If you celebrated Passover this year by avoiding leavened bread for the duration of the holiday, you probably enjoyed a delicious return to pizza, fresh bread, or oatmeal cookies (for the gluten-free among us) at the holiday’s conclusion.  Yum!  After a heightened awareness of our food choices for several days (that is, what can feel... Read more »

4.2.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

For the past few weeks, I couldn’t help but note the various “anniversaries” of tumultuous experiences which happened during the early onset of the pandemic.  As February rolled into March, I was reminded of the last time I “ate out” or who was the last out-of-town guest we hosted.  I was also startled by memories... Read more »

3.26.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

A friend of mine recently asked me, “What’s your five-year plan?” I gasped.  “Five-year plan?!  I don’t think I’ve ever planned for anything beyond a year.  Do people actually do that?”  It was what seemed to be an innocuous question.  A simple question; my friend just wanted to know what my hopes for my future... Read more »

3.19.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

Do you hear that?  It’s a whisper, or a chorus, or sometimes thunder that you can feel even if you can’t hear.  You are called.  It’s the intercom from the program facilitator office when you know you’ve messed up: “Attention residents: Kerry C, please come to the PF office.  Kerry C, please come to the... Read more »

3.12.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

There is a LOT going on in the Jewish calendar right now.  On Sunday, we will celebrate Rosh Hodesh, the beginning of a new month.  Passover is fast approaching – it’s only a couple of weeks away.  And this Shabbat, we will read the conclusion of the book of Exodus, as this week’s parashah is... Read more »

3.4.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

This week's parashah gives us one of the starkest insights into our fragmented nature - of our often conflicting inclinations that, when combined together, make us both imperfect humans and holy souls.  We see the struggles created and endured by the Israelites and their leaders during the tragedy of the golden calf.  And we rediscover... Read more »

2.26.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

There is a wonderful story in the Talmud about Rabbi Elazar ben Azariah.  After the rabbis depose Rabban Shimon ben Gamliel of his leadership role, Rabbi Elazar ben Azaria is selected to lead the Jewish people.  Before accepting the position, he says, “I need to check with my wife.”  That night as they discuss his... Read more »

2.19.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

What does a meaningful relationship look like?  And how do I get there? There are so many resistances to meaningful relationships, and many come down to this: if I don’t get too close, you can’t hurt me. Of course, we also know that in recovery, it’s only by letting people in - by connecting meaningfully... Read more »

2.12.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

“And these are the rules that you shall set before them,” this week’s parashah begins.  With this introduction, the Torah readies us for a list of instructions communicated to the Jewish people by God through Moses.  The Etz Hayim Torah commentary remarks, With this parashah, the tone of the Torah changes.  Up to this point,... Read more »

2.5.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

Amidst the manufactured reality of our socially distanced separation, this week’s parashah reminds us about the essential role that trusting relationships have in connecting us with the Holy and helping us live into our best selves. In between the Torah’s narrative of the splitting of the sea and G!D’s giving of the Ten Commandments, there... Read more »

1.29.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

I am the daughter of Black writers, who are descended from Freedom Fighters who broke their chains and changed the world. They call me. - Amanda Gorman, National Youth Poet Laureate If you missed her during last week’s Presidential Inauguration, Amanda Gorman’s poetry stole the show.  What’s amazing to me is that the youngest poet... Read more »

1.22.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

I imagine that the Israelites were not so different from us now.  They witnessed (in last week’s parashah) signs and wonders and destruction: the main water source turning to blood, overwhelming frogs and lice and flies, sick livestock, boils, and hail.   Some of it may have affected them, some the Egyptians only.  With all this... Read more »

1.15.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

One of my favorite things about working at Beit T’Shuvah is the ability to witness transformation.  It is a privilege and a gift to see individuals come in broken and then heal. So much of our healing depends on our own willingness and effort to grow, to learn and to be willing to take the... Read more »

1.8.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

I received some exciting news this past Sunday.  After a phone call with my parents, in which we all lamented the ongoing sameness of pandemic life, I received an email saying that I was eligible to receive a COVID-19 vaccine.  The State of California had adjusted their guidelines so that workers in residential Substance Use… Read more »

1.1.2021 Weekly Torah Portion

As we say goodbye to 2020, it’s obvious that the events of this past year have served to make it a defining point in our lives, a dividing line (in ways that will only continue to be revealed) between pre-2020 life and our post-2020 world.  As we march forward into 2021, we work to understand… Read more »

12.25.2020 Weekly Torah Portion

I was in a group with residents of Beit T’Shuvah earlier this week.  One resident said, “I’ve always not fit in with this group or that group – not enough this for these people or enough that for those people.  But maybe that’s a tired story.”  The Outsider.  How many of us identify as an… Read more »

12.18.2020 Weekly Torah Portion

Near the beginning of this week’s parashah, we read the story of Joseph being released from prison.  He had been jailed unjustly, having offended the master of his household.  While in prison, he gained recognition for his ability to interpret dreams.  Word of Joseph’s abilities spread beyond the prison walls.  And when Pharaoh needed a… Read more »

12.11.2020 Weekly Torah Portion

Before the pandemic it was common practice for the residents, upon arriving at Beit T’Shuvah, to be without their phones and other electronic devices for about a month or two.  One of the comments I heard frequently was a request for more clocks around the building.  Entering into residential treatment (and early recovery) had left… Read more »

12.4.2020 Weekly Torah Portion

One of my favorite ways to learn Torah is to ask myself, “What if?” Part of the beauty of learning the Torah in its original Hebrew is that the language is open to multiple interpretations.  In fact, some translations clean up and wash over some of the inconsistencies in the original text, from which the… Read more »

11.27.2020 Weekly Torah Portion

We all have moments of desperation, dark nights of the soul, in which we less call out to God than God reaches into us and pulls out a cry for help. In this week’s parashah, Jacob has a terrifying, lonely night in which God enters his dreams and comforts him, offering him hope for his… Read more »

11.20.2020 Weekly Torah Portion

“Mitzvah gedolah lihyot b’simcha tamid.” “It is a great mitzvah to always be happy.” -Rebbe Nachman of Breslov Earlier this week, I was speaking with a colleague who shared a story about a person who is on a quest to be happy.  This person is reading books, reflecting on what is important to them, and… Read more »

11.13.2020 Weekly Torah Portion

SPOILER ALERT!  There is a lot of living and dying in this week’s Torah portion, Chayei Sarah. Translated as the “the life of Sarah,” the portion provides us with models (and guidance) on how to embrace and “hold on” to what we have, while also accepting what we need to do. We start off by learning… Read more »

11.6.2020 Weekly Torah Portion

Red states.  Blue States.  Divided States.  United States.  Will we have a President-elect by the time this goes out?  Unclear. What’s for certain is that elections are anxiety provoking. According to a recent poll by the American Psychological Association, “more than two-thirds of adults are finding the 2020 election to be a significant source of… Read more »

10.30.2020 Weekly Torah Portion

This week’s parashah has one of the most compelling and memorable lines in all of Torah: The Lord said to Abram, “Go forth from your land, from your birthplace, and from your father’s house to the land that I will show you” (Genesis 12:1). This instruction from God to Abram comes with virtually no context,… Read more »

10.23.2020 Weekly Torah Portion

During my first year of rabbinical school, and the first year my then-girlfriend, now-wife and I lived together, I was taking steroids for a medical condition.  I remember returning home from school around 5:30pm, homework looming before me, perfectionist high-alert alarm blaring, and becoming angry – so, so angry – about dirty dishes, or some… Read more »

10.16.2020 Weekly Torah Portion

Over the past week, our Beit T’Shuvah community celebrated and grieved…together.  We enacted a virtual Simchat Torah celebration with dancing, Torah study, and re-upping our commitments to recovery.  We also gathered to acknowledge the familiar, but never explainable, experience of losing one of our own.  Our tradition affirms that life is messy and that a... Read more »

10.9.2020 Weekly Torah Portion

We are at a very interesting time in the Jewish calendar (I recognize I say that quite frequently, but alas, the wisdom of the rabbis and their intentionality behind our communal festivals), as we enter the final two days of Sukkot tonight (Hoshana Rabbah/Shemini Atzeret), with Simchat Torah on Saturday night. Have you forgotten the... Read more »

10.2.2020 Weekly Torah Portion

I have this image of my grandma:  she’s still in her 70s, as I knew her, but she’s back in Brooklyn, the motherland. She’s sitting around a table with other people in their 60s and 70s, almost all - if not all – Jewish; almost all - if not all - poor.  They’ve just pooled... Read more »

9.25.2020 Weekly Torah Portion

A few days ago, I woke up after an unusually vivid dream.  In the dream, I had accidentally acquired sixteen parakeets while shopping at Target, and was trying to figure out what to do with them.  When I told my husband about this dream, he thought of my sister, who for many years has had... Read more »

9.18.2020 Weekly Torah Portion

It’s hard to be apart at this time of year.  Many of us would be planning menus: who will bring what, and is anyone going to make gefilte fish from scratch?  Elders might be teaching family recipes to younger generations, and at Beit T’Shuvah, we’d be together in the sanctuary listening to the choir and... Read more »

9.11.2020 Weekly Torah Portion

Rosh Hashanah is just 7 days away! Do you feel as completely unprepared as I do? As we enter 5781, it feels like I'm constantly pulled between a heightened sense of urgency and a heavy weight of powerlessness. Pandemic. Presidential election. Racial injustice, protests, riots and counter-protests. Raging wildfires and climate change. Zoom fatigue and... Read more »

9.4.2020 Weekly Torah Portion

Two weeks from tonight, on the eve of Rosh Hashanah, we’ll include the Shehecheyanu prayer as part of the kiddush (sanctification) ritual.  This prayer is an acknowledgment of the arrival of a new experience and expresses gratitude for help in our getting to this moment.   However, I’m not sure if it will be able to... Read more »

8.28.2020 Weekly Torah Portion

As we continue our annual Torah reading cycle through the Book of Deuteronomy, the fifth of the five books of the Torah, we look ahead toward Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur, holidays that are quickly approaching on time’s horizon.  This week’s parashah, Ki Teitzei, contains a collection of miscellaneous laws - as if the Torah... Read more »

8.21.2020 Weekly Torah Portion

Imagine (or remember) getting to a point in your life that requires physically separating from the existing surroundings, lest the possibility of being completely consumed by destruction and pain occur.   This decision to leave is connected to heading towards a safe space, a place specifically designated for protection and rehabilitation.  The catch (there’s always a... Read more »

8.14.2020 Weekly Torah Portion

What are the blessings and what are the curses that we encounter on a daily basis?  When do we choose blessings over curses?  And when do we choose the opposite? As a kid, I remember running from my father’s blessings.  Every week during Shabbat services, he would usher me under his talit and hold me... Read more »

8.7.2020 Weekly Torah Portion

Let’s play ball!  Or not … Back to school!  Or not … Restaurant dining!  Or not … We’re craving normal.  We’re craving restaurants and beach life, going back to work, gathering for services, and social cues beneath the cheekbones.  But for our own health and the health of people we care about (and people we… Read more »

7.31.2020 Weekly Torah Portion

Our parashah this week, Va’etchanan, gives us a beautiful description of the process of t’shuvah.  As Moses exhorts the Israelites to follow God’s instruction, he acknowledges that they might not choose to do so, that they might stray from the right path.  And if (and when) they do, they will end up in darkness, having… Read more »

7.24.2020 Weekly Torah Portion

I frequently return to the wisdom found within The Spirituality of Imperfection by Ernest Kurtz and Katherine Ketcham to help guide my spiritual counseling work.  The authors’ perspective of spiritual growth starts with the premise of accepting the reality of our very human tendencies towards hypocrisy and self-deception.  They share that “…we human beings find… Read more »

7.17.2020 Weekly Torah Portion

The veil between life and death is thin, and sometimes we see just how thin it is – how fragile each of us is.  Sam’s death last week.  The deaths of others in our extended community.  We have looked straight through that very thin veil, and many of us see ourselves on both sides: “that… Read more »